Also, I have a Writers Coma

Im back! Gimme a hug! You know you want too! Come ‘ere!

I just wanted a reason to post that fine gif. He is so adorable. Heh

So whats up guys? I mean, hows it going? Good I hope.

Me? Been working out. You know, biceps and the triceps (que the laughs, haters). I need to get in shape before October. Pretty long way to go before this bootcamp ends. Yeah. *Whistles* I need all that energy focused to achieve my goal. Mind over body they say.

Aiya I want to look good lah damn~

I just wanted to say that Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 is coming up pretty soon and there is no way in hell I am going to miss it. Whos with me? I know you are, sit down.

Also, I have a Writers Coma. I have been writing something something on my notebook, hey, im old school okay, i write with paper and pen okay, and for a week, i have no continuation for my story. psh. ugh


Killing short lived friendships

Im listening to some Kings of Convenience and the songs just puts me in a pondering sort of mood.

A situation I just encountered triggered me to write this post. And its about making new friends, forging a relationship with complete strangers.

And Im not very good at that.

I wish I could just chill and be fluid with these things. But Im not. I kill alot of short lived friendships and I dont know whats wrong with me. I kill them because they just dont think the way I do. Thats a problem for me. I stand my ground on what I believe in, and thats not always good.

I also have these stupid fucking walls around me up every single second of my life. I just shut people off. Its annoying. Its annoying damnit. And I dont know how to change.

Sometimes I just want to cry about it. But then I drop it and move along.

i want to watch movies

im telling you i wanna watch a whole list of movies. its about time right? it has been AGES since i went for movies with anyone. trust me. the last movie i watch, was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part1, which is eons ago in the movie calender

i wanna watch

  1. Kung Fu Panda 2
  2. The Hangover 2
  3. X Men First Class
  4. Insidous
  5. Friends with Benefits
  6. One Day

and the list goes on man. i mean, really.

(this picture in not neccessary but i needed a thumbnail k so shut it)

i miss the cramped ass seats at the movies, and the treat counters. i miss the near sub zero temperatures of the thater, and the many many MANY advertisements before the movie. like we’ll rate if we’d watch the new movie while waiting for ours. movie food. i dislike popcorn so i’ll get nachos. damn, nachos, it has been too long. im getting sentimental about the movie theater, shoot me.

lets go watch a movie aight. ALL of us who’re feelin this 😉

P.S I have lost my touch in blogging. heh

get a job will ya?

So I got about 6 month to the October intake and my mom told me to get a job. Guuuuuurl I tell you I was like

Did she just say the J word? Oh good lawd, no! I am not ready to step into the working world god nooooooo~ Yeah, I know, I know, grow some balls right?

So I decided that maybe, maybe it could work you know, get a part time job, get some cash, spend some cash. So I then I started the thinking process.

  1. Transportation = Adult Fare
  2. I want nothing to do with Cashiering
  3. Or Waiting tables

So then you know what came up in my brilliant mind? Yishun Library. Yeah you heard/saw what I typed. Maybe I should work at the Yishun Library. Air conditioned, its at Northpoint which is like a few blocks away and I mean, PSHHHH its the Library! What kind of nonsense can happen there like PSHHHH. Plus like I like books you know.

You know, boy, I could be your personal Librarian

I SWEAR it sounded waaaaaay sexier in my head 😉

Where you working at? Gurll the Library, you know gettin some knowledge while working like guuuurl. And if Im lucky there’ll be that cute nerd guy I can see.

Sidenote, cute guy in the library will never happen because you know, cute guys dont go to library no more.

Also Im thinking of The Body Shop at Sembawang Shopping Center. Like I’ll be surrounded by MAKEUP! I’ll be so goddamn happy! and plus its like deserted there. Like who the hell goes to SSC to go to Body Shop you know? Like easy. Although the downside is that I’ll probably have to do some cashiering. Which I will freak about like I’ll suddenly paralyze with fear when processing the customers order or something.


UP or down

All the hardwork for nothing! In the waiting for too long and it is driving me nuts! You know what I already have come to a conclusion that I will never get to set foot in a Polytechnic in 2011 so Im ruling out all other options I can get my hands on.

  • Nitec in Nursing, College EAST

I just want to say that I CLEARLY KNOW that this is a DOWNGRADE from what Im holding (HNitec in Events Management). But Nursing provides a STABLE JOB with STEADY INCOME and BONUSES.

However being a Nurse would mean ever changing work schedule.

AND I would be 20 if I decided to enroll next year, January. 20. And my younger cousins are all going into their 1st- 2nd year Polytechnic.

PEOPLE WILL TALK. People already talked when I entered ITE. Now? Theyre gonna YELL about it, man, forget talking, they gon YELL about it.

I guess I’ll just have to have the mindset like

  • (Private Dip) MDIS Diploma in Psychology /Marketing

That will never happen. NEVER. Even if I worked my ass off to pay off all those money that is just IMPOSSIBLE because my parents will MURDER ME if they find out I want to give a shot at this.

Damnit this is no joke man.

  • WORK

Full Time at 19. Mediocre living. And just to put it out there, IM NOT READY TO WORK FULLTIMEEEE. You guys get it? I dont want to work full time at 19.

Im scared shitless of what is out there, damnit.

What organisation wants a worker with an ITE cert? They look at Diplomas. Where does that lead me? Waitressing at Swensens?


update; Moshein said there’s an October intake. Consider? but like wtf i didnt get in now why the hell would i get it later?

i dont know if i’ll make it, but watch how good i fake it


ugh im like waiting for the acceptance of my appeal to Temasek and Nanyang Polytechnic after Republic kicked my ass out of its doorstep. waiting is not easy im telling you this. if i could go on bawling untill i get it, i would

baobei and cm got rejected and i still havent got any sort of reply from TP

is it possible to forget how to blog?

after finals it was all easy breezy. got my results for finals and it was still breezy, i did aight. distinction, B, B. pretty swell eh? i was so sure id get my well deserved slot

until the next day when i found out i didnt score any slots at any polytechnic. yeah, i was depressed and smoking so much red charlie sheen would say im winning

so i ran my ass to Republic on the same day to quickly appeal, dragging the classmates whos in the same boat with me. so then day after day was just running to every polytechnic in Singapore except Ngee An and Singapore Poly to beg to get a slot.

thing that gets me is that i did well. i did good man i jumped a 0.6GPA for finals. and the thing that pisses me the frig off was that people with a lower GPA compared to me, GOT A DAMN PLACE IN POLY. LIKE WHERE THE FUCK IS THE LOGIC?!?! even with all the events backing my ass up I STILL lost to someone WITH A LOWER GPA WITH NO GOOD TESTIMONIAL WHATSOEVER like bish what the fuck? like what the fuckery is this cause this is not funny the frig.

while i was rambling my ass off, pissed at this stupendous factoid, my mom says “dah rezeki deorang, sbab tu dorang dapat. rezeki aisyah belom kesampaian” which to me just translates to “kau memang suay ah”

its like i worked hard for this man. i worked hard for finals. and i see the improvements , i see the jump! but

and then Republic Polytechnic rejected me. I read the email at about 11PM and CRIED MY ASS OUT IN THE DARK LISTENING TO IN THE END- Linkin Park. i had like a nervous breakdown man, that night. im telling you i was thinking suicide, i was acting crazy. its like i cannot stop crying and my hands were shaking so i did what i do best. light it up outside you know, calm my tits down

my friends were all telling me to not give up but i was all “leave me to dieeeeee” i think they got kinda annoyed. sorry guys my mind was just fucked up

and now im still in the waiting game



EVMers/ final paper etc

look i havent got much time, listen to me, and listen to me carefully alright.

PJMS is fucking OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!. *que dancing daft as fuq yoda*

yeah, take a breather here. you know what? sit your ass down from dancing cause pjms is over. because i have one more for you


i know. i know, all of you mad. well, some of you mad cause that module is a killer. fuck you, I AM MAD cause the modules a killer okay. damn. sometimes, just sometimes, i get so fucking emotional when trying to study for mice

i’ll sit my ass down on the study table, and before i even flip open to unit 4 and 5 i’ll be all

sometimes i get all angry like


whoot whoot! good luck for mice yall

*you know the drill, click the pictures if they aint movin foo~