a thank you and a fuck you

hey mods, i’ve got some overwhelming news

yesterday’s TOMS post generated a little of 859 readers! that is an accomplishment

seriously, where do you guys come from?

i just wanted to say a big fat thank you! from the bottom of my soul! it’s exhilarating to know that people do appreciate my art of rambling. im smiling so much right now

inhale, exhale

anyway, i’m about to do it, i’m about to click on my student portal to go cehck out my results for last years finals. (i need a breather, to calm the nerves. i need camomile tea)

this is just impossible. IMPOSSIBLE. this is BULLSHIT!

here’s my result

writing for business- D (pass)

service excellence- B (very good)

tourism and product services- B (very good)

GPA: 2.4

bullshit. there is no way in hell i could get a D for a subject which is graded on my command for english. this is preposterous. you know what i’m about to do? i am going to write/ type an appeal letter

dear anglie li (no, you cannot sue me now),

this is bullshit. the marking system obviously screwed the fuck up. there is no way in hell i could have gotten a D for your stinking (literally) subject

you said i wouldnt have to worry because my report was gold. and now you’re giving me a D? bullshit

if i knew this was coming i would have given you the worst ever feedback for your measly uninteresting teaching skills. i am so pissed, you dont even know

oh, is this too rude for your little heart to take? i dont give a hoot

i am going crazy here and you dont even know

really? a D? REALLY?!

you better go see your optometrist and check your crazy eye and remark my paper in front of me, and tell me why in detail for every cross you give me

i’m not even going to say a thank you because you dont fucking deserve it

(time to get my composure back)

you know what she’s prolly jealous of me because i unlike her have the ability of keeping myself up to par with the hygiene standards of society

TOMS

hey mods, remember how i use to (i still do) want several pairs of TOMS? well, i still havent get my hands on them but whatever. today im going to mention an awesome event, hosted by TOMS

alright so TOMS, is this shoe organization that sticks to a one for one movement. with every pair you purchase, TOMS will give a pair of new shoes to a child in need. One for One. and i think it’s pretty rad.

while getting yourself a snazy pair of comfortable TOMS, you’re actually also giving a child in need a snazzy pair for himself! its a new wave of charity and it is pretty impressive

also, on the 8th of april, TOMS is hosting the one day without shoes day. it’s motive is to create an awareness of the thousands of barefooted people everyday, whether they’re skateboarding, doing house chores, everything. sign me up

right now im actually looking for the TOMS community is Singapore to find out if they are actually going with this motion. if they are, i am definitely barefooted on the 8th. and if TOMS singapore happens to read this, contact me! and we could host a small event or something. at least we could try

and this is so far my favourite pair of the lot

(i’m not paid to advertise TOMS or what ever. i just find this event really worthy of my mention so i’m just putting this out there for you people)(mitchell davis was a good choice of media for advertising this, smart move, TOMS)

how’s the holidays?

i clearly have too much time on my hands

hey mods, it’s been about 2 weeks into the holidays and i guess i’ve been having an alright time. how about you?

i have no idea when the results are in for last years finals. i heard that they’re going to give us our results 2 to 3 weeks after our papers. am i right? or am i just blurting shit now? cause i really dont know :L

i guess i am kind of nervous but im expecting a slightly high improvement in my GPA(grade point average) this time. i mean, last time i got like a miserable 2.4GPA. not happy. i guess, it was because i hadnt studied for almost a year and then suddenly im in college and all the tests are in my face and i the only explanation that could bail me out is that i’ve gone academically rusty

i’m aiming a 3.2GPA. i wanted to type 3.5GPA but then i pussied out so, yeah. 3.2GPA

okay enough about all that academic nonsense (educators all over the world are now hating my guts for saying that) how are you guys spending your holidays?

me? i’ve been spending my a month or so holidays at home, doing chores and celebrating women’s day at the kitchen

i kid the sourpuss women who are now cursing me ’cause i just reminded them of their sad lives as housewives

i’ve been going out with my bestfriend for a fair bit of time (and we are going out soonish again to get my crocs) besides that i’ve been having pilates classes with ellen. my fat ass needs 4days, 30 minutes a day of cardio every week. i can live with that. i’ve been living with that

i bet suzzie’s been up in the gym just working on her fitness, though there’s no witness. get it? black eyed peas fergie?

oh shit, hannah just texted and my results are out on wednesday, 31st march. crap now im actually nervous. lets all pray that i did good. thanks

these things in my mind

this is a longish post, im warning you

hey mods, school needs to start quick- im bored to tears

anyways, im thinking of dyeing my hair mohagony brown or plum before school reopens. actually i have already decided that im going to redye the hair, so yeah. suggestions are appreciated

so im going to get the alice crocs, soonish before school starts, i promise. excited about that (thank you truckloads suriyati) oh and i actually got a guess wristlet in grey (fav colour)(thank you siti zubaihdah/syaurah/yazid) so we can all safely say that facebook hints works

time for a smooth transition

senior year all over again. now year 2, there’s bound to be major groupworks and all that jazz. put that aside, i think it’ll be pretty sweet. we are no longer newbies and now, we are the cream of the crops. sounds pretty sweet to me

groupworks- not looking forward to that (im this one man kind of band) but i’ve already decided- after a series of bad experiences- that im not just sticking to a group, the same group over and over again. this time, we all need to be exposed to different working type. and this time, it’s a competition. im going to make sure my group is elite

im going to be the boss. im going to be decisive, im going to speak up more often and over rule any stupid suggestions. time to shine like a fucking star

and if youre not happy with the changes, the world wont stop for you

as they say

if you got an issue, here’s a tissue

another smooth transition, love life

i did not expect anything more than mindless flirting from a mat tagged, so dont worry about me

it is non existent and im getting more stoic and hostile. im not one to played with and its about time i cut you off. who loves you? im tired

no, darling, love is not free when its with me. get a clue, maybe than you wont be so confused

there will be no more crying in the rain, im ready to lose touch

im done with this shit

you know mods, as much as i crave for a stable relationship, i could definitely live without it. for now. right now i just want my ass into a polytechnic (thanks for the motivation mug, luqman)

still yo baus (boss)

hey mods

part of my be a boss scheme, i woke up at 1PM. can you say laaaaaaaaaate?

anyways, tomorrow’s a party not to be missed. its like a sweet 16, but i am 18 😉 i’ll walk with a swagger and wear nsfw blood red lipstick and black raybans and walk around holding a menthol stick. and i got like dollar bills exploding from my pockets, im

and yo baus

and my bestfriend (because even a boss needs a best friend) will be beside me trying to not make me piss myself if i got too drunk. on mountain dew. that shit is alchoholic im telling you now

and i just realized that boys are beautiful. i mean, more beautiful than us girls. they dont need make up to look flawless. and it annoys me

i ate a bagel today. not a donut. a bagel, cause im a baus. just an average day for da baus

if you need a suga mama, dont be shy homie, wait in line

and if you dont fancy me, you must have bat for the other team

like a boss

and fuck everything that makes me unhappy

hey mods

enough of analyzing my feelings, now im yo baus

not going to get emotionally attached to anything anymore. i got my purple drank and my menthol sticks and now im living my life like a boss

hell yeah,

and she livin’ the life

dont expect me to care about anything other than me now. im yo baus and you better be showin’ me some respek you got that down?

and if you dont like how im rolling, pfft

i aint gonna give a fuck cause im da baus!

writing the sadness away

hey mods

im aching to blog so bad but i just dont have anything interesting to blog about

probably going out with the bestfriend and her mom tomorrow night. it’ll be good i think. i hope so. atleast she’s not dragging me to malaysia. no offense, i just dont like to go there. really

so today mom got a job opening at bata so that’s good. i hope she gets the job and we’ll live a little easier

now im just doubtful about the relationship, seriously. i try to try to make it work but it isnt improving so i decide to give up before i get too attached

my biggest flaw: giving up on people too quickly

and i think its a good thing that im able to think rationally about this whole episode of my life. one door closes, and another window opens. because they say

life is all about window treatments

and i bet a lonesome, depressed person wrote that

i dont feel like going out anymore. i’m planning to stay in the house for the longest period of time, until school officially reopens

i had been a really good deal

hey mods

i am sad. i thought he liked me for me. turns out he’s the same as many other boys who just wants a cheap thrill (ref:sexual activities)

i never thought id end up with these type of men. i honestly never thought id end up with an asshole

it hurts

and he’s trying to make it better. but i already feel so cheap

im angry and selfish and dizzy

he says i dont treat him like a boyfriend. i feel the same way. i feel like a spare

i dont like this

18th

hey mods

so yesterday it was another bfff day out and i was so excited. i mean, it’s been a long time coming. i missed starbucks and photoboothing

at first we went to mcds because the bestfriend is hungry. and then to starbucks and beyond

she bought me a birthday cake slice ❤

apple crumble cheese cake &green tea frap = lahv

it was so sweet of her, i mean, really. in all honesty i didnt know she was going to celebrate the 18th with me. i thought it was just another starbucks session

i was so bloody happy. and we were one of those giggling teenagers

she wanted to feed me, i was like

and then i was like

and then she pulled out a nicely wrapped box with the wrapping paper i chose! she said it was for her mom and i totally didnt suspect anything

and she wrapped the box with so many layers of papers so its like i have to unwrap, get a note

and unwrap

and read the notes, by notes (its like p.s i love you kind of theory)

and eventually i ended up with a bunch of wrapping paper, and plus everyone was smiling at me because i have a bunch of wrapping papers on my lap. all over the table. but then i cleaned it up

and it wasn’t the birthday present. it was a joke. it was a nightgown in tiger preengs (print). idiot, but it was a laugh

and she gave me the real thing, an awesome tshirt. and its not wrapped. haha

and then we just had our cakes, and we talked, laughed and looked at people’s facebook profiles and laugh

it was thrilling, to say the least

and then 3 security idiots walked past us and was like ‘nice laptop’ *winks and i was like so stunned i just stared at him and he smiled creepily. annoying. and they decided to the walk-past-and-smile thing again. ew

so then nurul and i walked all the way to the river and there was some kind of kick boxing class there, like in the public. and we laughed at how unfortunate the 40s aunties look like, trying to keep up. unfortunate

walked all the way to central, nurul had a cup corn and while walking some malay dudes in a lorry horned at us for fun and i like looked at them so that sucks and they were like laughing. assholes

okay and walked all the way to peninsula and then took the train home

now on the train home, i decided to be nice and offered the elderly 50s uncle to take my seat and he said its okay and his friend, who was sitting beside me was like

“baek eh budak ni”
“this kid is nice”

i was like, i cant even

and then i was saying to nurul that i think my mom’s pissed and he said

“mak marah? balek lambat eh?”
“mom’s nagging? cause you’re late?”

like wtf? old man stop eavesdropping. rood

so then we started talking about people in the same cabin and i totally noticed this super cute in a geeky kind of way guy. and nurul was like “he’s ugly”

i swear i think he heard

but i was oblivious so i continued saying that i think he looks decent and kind of sort of definitely cute in my books

he dropped off at yishun too so i was like yes!

and i was smitten

and so i walked home alone in the dark, talking on the phone with nurul about how smitten-ed i was and talked all sorts of things about how cute i think he was until nurul threatened to hang up on me

so i reached a junction, still in a faze and i decided to just turn around and

THERE HE WAS, looking at me

and i did a 360 degree turn so sharp it was obvious but i couldn’t help it and wanted to strangle myself. i was so embarrassed i mean, really. sheesh y’all i was so bloody embarrassed

and i guess he was nice enough to not walk the same way although we were walking to the same place

and he lives in chiong pang or somewhere there

smitten

never in my life have i ever been smitten like this

i pray to see him again

march sucks

hey mods

here are some of the reasons why march is officially the worst month for me

first of all, even if it’s over, i had to deal with finals. i has to crack my head open, pour in some brain juice in, put the lid back on and shake it till i break it (until i understand shit) and after all that jazz, i realized that my 3.5GPA is no longer reachable. fml

i got food poisoning so i’ve been doing this for the last couple of days

it resulted to me throwing up florescent yellow phlegm like substances continuously and shitting some gastric juices water type shit. 2 days later, my shit is like banana smoothie soft and yellow. fml

my wisdom tooth decides to start growing again, cause ulcers at the back of the inside of my mouth. fml

my boyfriend is annoying and needy and never fails to make- up a whole shit blown out of proportion drama series in his head, making it more complicated, about our petty fights. fml, this is what you get for wishing so much

18th march, no one’s coming. fml

i cannot eat solid food. i can only drink liquids and fluids until im fully recovered. fml

my brother got his 2nd iPhone i think and never fails to annoy me with his constant chant ‘i got an iphone, i got an iphone’, in my face. fml

my other family has decided to go away for awhile to port dickson (some malaysion region or some shit) and i couldnt come with. i really deserve a holiday. fml

and, lastly

i’m down with the flu

dad decides that the series of unfortunate events happens due to my ‘coming of age’. HAHA. funny dad, real funny

i should renew my health insurance